A LEVEL IS ALL ABOUT STRESS!!!

i cannot believe it!!! i wanna QUIT!!!!A LEVEL IS HORRIBLE...

not just the subjects i'm taking but also the decisions i have to make.,
now that i'm in year 12., i need to make a good decision about my future., actually, i already know which field interest me., but i still dunno where to go.,[which is EXTREAMLY IMPORTANT!!!]

my school has provided the students in year 11 - 13 a carrier counsellor., which all ma fwens find very helpfull., though i dunno yet.,but i do think she is helpful
just recently she organized university from qatar and canada to visit our school. i reaaly wanna do medicine course., though i now i'm not very smart, but i know i'm not dumb either., if i try really hard i think i can make it., and for the financial., medicine is very expensive., so i have to try to get scholarship., insya Allah ., i will., i just hope i can get it


but now the problem...i dont know which university i should go...
um...now i have doubt to go back to indonesia.., sure i want to go back there coz., it's the only place i felf at home..coz it's sooo comfortable there and everything., but i wanna study international course., so that it'll b easier - not guarantee - to get a job later on.,


huff=.=..where oh where should i goo???

PS: i'll have maths test 2morrow., so wish me gud luck...
i hope i can get A THIS TYM,.,whenever i hope to get an A., it never happen..T_T
but i'll keep hoping and believing..-.-