NiFa---DiFa----DiVa---.

Sunday, November 18, 2007

OMG...OMG....i would neever believe myself for saying this but...i felt today's time flies soooo fast at school..=.=

umm...actually., nothing special has happen., but the lessons seems less boring..or is it because we had had a physics test at 3rd period,.. so most of the tym i spent on thinking physics..=.=...i just hope i can get 95% above...T__T though it seems soo impossible!!!

but I'M SOOO HAPYY that in maths i can get 90%...though i now., i CAN get sooo much better., all of the mistakes i made is like...SILY MISTAKES!!!

and...i havent seen richie the whole day=.= just got a glimpse of im...but it's not enoughhh..=.=

i just hope i can do biology as good as maths..and i also hope that physics's mark is ok...

oh..and about the school fair...umm...how should i put this..well...i dont think fate chose me n richie., the only tym i see him is just when he came to our stall...and it's not even MY TURN!!..i got a few pics from the fair,.,but..i cant find ma camera now., so...i'll upload it latter^^

* i wanna C richie=.=[huahauhauhau..ppl might think i'm crazy..=.=]

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

A LEVEL IS ALL ABOUT STRESS!!!

i cannot believe it!!! i wanna QUIT!!!!A LEVEL IS HORRIBLE...

not just the subjects i'm taking but also the decisions i have to make.,
now that i'm in year 12., i need to make a good decision about my future., actually, i already know which field interest me., but i still dunno where to go.,[which is EXTREAMLY IMPORTANT!!!]

my school has provided the students in year 11 - 13 a carrier counsellor., which all ma fwens find very helpfull., though i dunno yet.,but i do think she is helpful
just recently she organized university from qatar and canada to visit our school. i reaaly wanna do medicine course., though i now i'm not very smart, but i know i'm not dumb either., if i try really hard i think i can make it., and for the financial., medicine is very expensive., so i have to try to get scholarship., insya Allah ., i will., i just hope i can get it

but now the problem...i dont know which university i should go...
um...now i have doubt to go back to indonesia.., sure i want to go back there coz., it's the only place i felf at home..coz it's sooo comfortable there and everything., but i wanna study international course., so that it'll b easier - not guarantee - to get a job later on.,

huff=.=..where oh where should i goo???

PS: i'll have maths test 2morrow., so wish me gud luck...
i hope i can get A THIS TYM,.,whenever i hope to get an A., it never happen..T_T
but i'll keep hoping and believing..-.-

Saturday, November 10, 2007

eeeuuuurrgghhh...how i hate mY seLf wheN i caNt geT mY seLf to geT oRganiZed.,!!!

pepLe seeMs to thinK thaT i'M a veRy organized anD neat peRson., LittLe do theY know thAt thoSe thin9s R da Last woRds 2 descRibe my seLf..,//

when i want., i MIGHT be able to be neat and get organiZed., buT thoSe momenTs R so Rare that bY da Tym i ReaChed 20 theY migHt haV come jusT 10 timeS[moRe oR LesS]

buT i reaLLy want to get serious and sTaRt to chaN9e masELf 4 guD now., coZ i reaLLy wanna b a suCCess peRson[who dOEsnT?]

i mi9hT haV said this to ma SeLf 100 tiMes but., i Neva actuaLLy mean it...so., thIS tYm i'LL tRy to be neaT and oRganiZed., and i'LL MEAN it tHIS tyM!!!!

**btw., i'm goin9 to haV a matHs test AND a bioLo9y teSt This thuRSday...i juSt hope i can scRAp an A for boTh,...and aLso in chemiStry test i just did Last thuRsday., i hoPe i couLd get an A...coZ LasT cHEmisTRy test i Got a B., so i reaLLy wanna imProve it by gettin9 an A.,
AnD neXt week physics teST., i hoPe i can Get an A as welL..AMIIIIINNNN

pLease everyone pRAY 4 me,......

Friday, November 9, 2007

OMG....nifa takuD bangeeeddd....

punya crush at skuL., tapi. pengenna mah dyanya ga nyadar.,.but,..tiapkali ada orang yang nanya nifa.,adacowok yang kamu suka ga?..pas nifa jawab ada...pasti kanmreka nanya sapa., nah..pasti laaah nifa ga bakalan bilang gitu aja...tapi kan pastinya mreka nebak., anehnyaa....tebakan mreka jitu!!!

aaaddduuuuhhh....gimana atuuuh....nifa ga pengen tralu obvious.s.....nifa ga mau dya ...taww...aaaaaaa

help help...help..

* I CANT KEEP UP WITH AS LEVEL!!!!AAARRRRGGGHHH I"M GOING CRAZY!!!!!'*

it's so scary to think that u might fail ur exam...i'm so stressed out right now...i have so many homework, so many tests., and on top of that there are so many talented people in my class!!
and to think,i want to become a doctor when i grow up...now., i'm not so sure.,
but, i still dont know whati wanna become if i remove doctor from mylist.to be a doctor has been my only goal and my only obsession.,now., if i lost that., i dont know what goal should i aim...of course i told my mom all of my thoughts., but all she said was."have u ever experience the path of becoming a doctor? have you experience the tests yet?"

and my answers hasalways been a NO.i think i need to study a bit harderand i need to concentrate harder., but i felt that to concentrate these days has become harder and harder. especially since i cantreally communicate rightat skul., people seems to think me and my friends are nerds until they actually try to talk to us.,

i want to change my habit.,my image and all those related to it., but it's easier said than done.
i just hope people dont think of me as a person who think above others., think that the other people are dumber than me., i NEVER EVEN THINK LIKE THAT!!!
i'm a person who always think people has their own strength and weakness..so i never think i'm beter than others., but people seems to think so., it's driving me mad!!!

so i have no other choice except to get it out of ma mind and try hard and focus on study., i also have to try hard and forget about richie!!!

i just hope i can get B or above for tests...because if i dont aim high., i';m going to fall apart on my study...so.,MY AIM IS TO GET A