U see.,.i dont know if i'm crazy or dumb or dimbo..
But i completely confused of what i have to do...
This guy that i wrote bout it b4 here as well..saying that i wont lyk him n all...
Well..it turns out that i was fakin..i din mean it at all..
I meant not to fall 4 any1 b4 i bcam a gr8 n succsfull doctor..bt y cant i do it?
I even go out with him 4 a year more or less...
I officially go out w/ him 4 4 months bt fwb the rest..
He's not good at treating a girl.. I cant tell if he's honest or if he's faking..
I'm just afraid if he takes benifit of me..
Coz he hurts me lots of tym b4 n now as well...
I dont want to lyk him...
Coz i know theres a past of him that i dont lyk..n theres a part of him that i dont lyk n i dont understand...but when i remember that no body s perfect..even i'm not perfect..n i dont lyk it either when he expect me 2 b perfect..i realize that im selfish...y do i want to lyk sum1 perfect when im not maself?
Then i figure that 1 cant be perfect but both can..
Now if i can only make him think that.,

Hes not a man of his word i think..he lied 2 me few times b4..even though he said that its 4 good..still i dont lyk it..i hate it..bt its really difficult 2 4get him...what shud i do 2 4get?...i dunno...mayb time will tell..
I really have 2 focus 2 ma stdy now rather than him..
I have to!..

Cdv is really though...i dunno if i can make it through...can i?....oh i hope i can...

I watched princess frog just now n i loved it!i wish i can successfully achieve ma dream just lyk her.. *_*
This tropic diseases makes ma head spin...but i'll try really hard..i promise...please...let me be the best now...amin..

akhir2 nie., nifa pikir skul dah mulai ok laaah...prasaan kadang2 seru, boring, rame, biasa tapi yang jelas., nifa bisa ngrasain waktu goes by sooo fast.,
and tuh artinya., AS mank lbh rame dari pada IGCSE..,

waktu itu ., hari terakhir ujian AS pas di jan tgl 17 jan., qta2 smua pada pigi ice skatin., itung2 buat celebration lah., nifa ngrasa mank hari tuh fun banet..mank iya posture nifa ga banged., tapi yang jelas bukan cuma nifa doank yang kaya gitu., alia, hana ma gen juga mase blajar^^..jadiii ga tralu malu laah.,yang pergi sekitar 9 orangan...yaaa smua gang kita kcuali ailsa lah.,soalnya pas hari tuh neneknya ailsa meninggal dunia., innanillahi wa inna ilaihi rojiuun...

trus sbelum tuh., nifa pigi skating ma jing, gen ma icha..itu juga lumayan seru se.,,bisnya pas itu tuh..qta decide bakalan main train., trus smua anak2 di situ pada ngikuuut gituu., yaaa pokoknya lumayan laaah

oh iya.,nifa juga skarang dah ga suka richie lagi YAY!!!
ahuahuahua....akhinyaaaa ALHAMDULILLAH^^

ooh., and nifa dah daftar ke UGM jurusan kedokteran., masalahnya., nifa ngambil yang national bukan inter..,aduuuh....kayaknya harus inter dee...aaaaa ya Allah., nifa mohoon kasi jalan keluar terbaik buat nifa amiiin

OMG OMG OMG....tomorrow's da LAST day of ma HoLs.!!!whaddamai gonnado????????
that just mean that i'll have exams in 5 days da most!!!!
and the only thing i've studied is biology!!!OMG., study., day is to say., open the book., not memorizing at ALL!!

huufff=.= i just hope that i'll have LOADS of gud luck and dat miracle WILL happen 2 me.,
i know dat i just have dis year to correct and to improve and to prove to everyone., that i can do much better and that all of their predictions of me which are in high standard could be achieved and predictions in below standard to be proven wrong!!

and i also want to spend time wid ma fwens as often as possible., i wanna go out, hang out wid ma fwens more., and i've already go out wid em last thursday and LEARN how to skate da very fwest tYm., and i find enjoyable., and so., i wanna go oout skate moe!!

geez/., i felt sooo embarrased., dat is ma thewd tym i went skatin and i just know how 2 skate properly...i felt sooo stupid!!! now that i know the ticket., i'll improve ma self by practising with roller blades!!and thakfully.,me HAVE roller skates., so dat i can do it., hohoho

ppls.,i just wanna study how to skate and to get A in ma jan Exams...y Allah., please grant all of ma wishes amiiiiin

hoLiday kaLi ini ga enaaak anged!!=.=
3 hari bis masuk ntar bakalan langsung ujian!! malah io ma maths lagy!!!aduuuuu mati gw!!!
...btw., happy new year yaaph.,(mank telat se., tapi...biarin lah!)

ok., besok., bakalan ada extra physics lesson., dah janji ke gen bakalan dateng., jadi...yaaa ga bisa mundur de., tapi jujur.,mrasa bersalah banged ke hana,...pas extra pisika lesson kmaren., buku bio dya baru nifa kembaliin....haaaa maaVin nifa ya hana...T_____T

nifa harap., di taun baru ini., nifa bakalan bisa blajar lebih rajin n ama Allah bakalan di beri jalan yang termudah buad nifa supaya bisa masuk uni paling baik buad nifa!!ma nifa bakalan bisa do her best di january exam ntar

amiiiiinn..

i swear., this hoLs is da worsT hoLs eVER!!!
coz., most of ma tym in the hols will b spent on revision.,coz straight AFTER the hols., i'm going 2 haV ma AS exam!!...an 2 hink., that that thing is da worst., i wasnt praying on the EID dayT_T

i reaaaly want to pray EID coZ it's onLy once in a Life tYm[foR EiD ADHA., ]., but ma mom was preparing ,.for food and stuff., so she wasnt abLe 2 come., so i just stayed at home 2 heLp her.,

i might b able to go out sumtyMs but i'm soo desperate to get straight A's for ma AS result dis year., so yeaaah.,i think i can b miserable. this hols...T__T

but i just hope that all ma tym and effort will b paid off with good reward^^

' ya ALLAH nifa mohon nifa bisa nge dapetin straight A's untuk ujian AS di january nanti., dan Nifa mohon berikan jalan yang tebaik untuk nifa., jadikan nifa masuk ke university yang terbaik untuk nifa., jadikan nifa jadi dokter yang sukses dan solehah dan berguna untuk keluarga dan masyarakat. AMIIN'